I know physical pain all too well.
The mental torture of knowing how far I fell.
Cramps, stabbing, ripping, twisting my insides.
And yet, here I am. Very much Alive.
I know what it’s like to feel dead inside.
To have lost all hope, left wanting to die.
I know how it feels to not want to survive,
I know confusion as some days I am happy to be alive.
I know how it feels to want to be free
Independence from doctors and chemical pain relief.
For now, I push my feelings aside and create harmony.
Today I remembered. There is a Warrior inside Me.